feeling like a waiting room

Today I went to the bank to set up automatic bill payment, and that makes me feel old. Maybe old is to harsh but growing up, I think I've been in denial for a bit all my friends are embarking into the 20's and some are almost done school and really taking off in their personal relationships and becoming a part of civilization and yet, I'm sitting on my bed listening to music and in a rut about what to do. Although my lines of vision have become a little less blurry I'm still unsure about the decision to travel with my sister or not, it seems that it will be pushed to march wich is fine but that's a long ways away so now I think... should I take a fall course you know so I'm some what exposed to that side of the spectrum or should I continue working like a pack mule and having no life and having to book my friends and family in my somewhat organized scheduel. But as those thoughts go trough my mind i'll push them aside as my mind would rather let Damien Rice into my thoughts as I just bought 4 new cds them being metric: old world underground, where are you now?, Damien Rice: O, Feist: Open season, and last and significantly least Avril Lavigne: Best Damn Thing.

Yes my cd choice may seem wierd but to tell you the truth me and Avril are tight went to her concert and I just can't push her away, but I can admit I was a tad disapointed but not overly I just expected,... more.

My other cd's have blown her out of the water. Feist was amazing it's the remixes and collabs so it has artist like K-os and postal services remixing her songs. For example the song mushaboom was re-mastered by FOUR different artist and they all sound different (same words different beat) which is really cool. (well at least to me) so if your interested check it out or let me know. Damien Rice can't really disapoint I've just kind of put it off for awhile so it's been nice and it's making me more subdued and relaxed.

Now the metric Cd I have not listen to it yet. I have their newest one and love it and since I am going to their concert I want to know ALL songs so I went out and got their older one and I've heard some and have no complaints so it should be good.

Now for my facebook rant: Even though I am apart of it I'm unsure about this whole people able to find you it kind of creeps me out when your chem teacher who you didn't really talk to all that much adds you. I'm sorry that is wierd, and second it seems like more of a popularity thing than anything els. But I do like the fact that I can see how intertwined life is and how any people know simliar people that is neat.